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11.14.2023

infinite osmosis

 WCCX II





I picked up my number to race, and it was an 8. That is an unusual number for me. First thought, was, infinity.  
then, blog post title, and then infinite osmosis
and that was it, no words followed, no easy stream.  just short burst of emotions, ideas, 
I pretty much thought I'd give up, and not write anything, too tough. 



How many times can I say that is has been a special season.  This year one of the most. 
How much I am surprised by people, THX!  Sturdy Girls for bringing back Nittany.  THX! Instigators for bring the enthusiasm.   THX! Endgrain for the most best cx moment in a long time. 
THX!  twozerodeltathree for capturing moments, that define memories.  https://www.instagram.com/twozerodeltathree/#  
THX! officials, my wife, my training mates, my team mates. Frodo.  the dj B Tart.  Bob "pit man" Joos.

I got out on the mountain bike today, and this small window of time, of the tilt of the earth, the suns angle, and blue cool shadow on top of the fallen leaves.  The little trails of Belmont.  
and I kept thinking infinite osmosis, and nothing came, I have nothing to write, pretty much given up.
and then a thought popped into my mind, a voice "give it a shot d lowe, you can do it!"

The trails, the leaves are so thick, i rode them by memory, history, following the flow, a damn fine day on the bike.

I had no idea what I would write when I sat down tonight, I guess I just need a bit of encouragement, the feeling that someone saw something in me, that potential, that maybe, I can do it. 
Thank you, Kevin

WCCX II 6th Master Men 60+.
dlowe




10.23.2023

CRCX - be good

 My first day walking into junior high, through the front doors I pass the office. On the right, a glass wall to look into.  The office.  Hanging on a wall was a beautiful paddle. The word "good" was painted on it in olde English lettering, it had a waffle 9 holes. I suppose to reduce air flow on the swing, on the way, to smack righteousness into your ass. 

My days at school seemed like as long as you did wrong, respectfully, outside the boundaries, clandestine, nonchalant, you got away with it, no one looked too hard for it.  Maybe no one had the time to deal with it.

In public, wrong was made an example of, swiftly and sometimes unjustly, and it made its point.

Cooper River cx racecourse is a long narrow ground along a river, straights, turns, some steps, a little sandpit of fun.  It's not intimidating, and somehow, it seems, people let down their guard, dropping a bit, and blend together, socialize. 






I dropped my chain twice during the race, once in the beginning of the first lap and once, in a collision coming out of the sandpit, with a long hair single speeder, on the last lap.  Finishing 12th.  Definitely my own fault.
I had good battles, I got a homerun compliment, that "I guiled" the corners impressively (Podium!), from one of our groups members.
I road up to the longhaired single speeder, post race, a younger class rider, the dude who chopped corners, and I chopped his corner and dropped my chain on the last lap.  And smiled, "good racing" I said.  I think it is important, for your opponent to get a compliment for beating you. To show, let him get a look at a 61 year old, bit chubby, foe.  That despite his eye blinder desire to be ahead of me, that after the race we are all just crossers, staying out of the eyesight, over the fence behind the baseball field, sitting on milk crates sharing one can of beer lifted outta someones garage, warm, breaking the rules, together. 

Cheers, 
dlowe


Thx for the fine, in the grid photo, Gorka!




10.15.2023

Be In - Crossasaurus

   Some say cross is dead, nil. 
Canceled.  Reeling and reeking of an ugly stench.  A disgusting beast, of swill, drooling, machoistic, the soul of the most honest to the bone internal self-abuse every invented.
I find it comes easy, and to me, quite normal.  And from the first pedal stroke, my heart rate is beating as hard and as fast as it can. I steer a bit wide into this corner and punch it quick to pass on this small patch of dirt. 




Cross is a conscription.  Cross looks easy and fast, as I watch others race.  Cross is a family, after your first race.  It is a secret handshake, a beer clandestinely poured into a Dunkin' Doughnuts cup.
Cross is hard nipples in the cold for everyone.
white lips, pruned toes




Truth be told, it is just another check box of a world of extracurricular actives to choose from.
I can't give it up. 
and right now I am dreaming of the times when I "was fast" fitter, thinner, naive.
Dreaming again of standing atop the top box.
but for now, 
and who knows, how forever long, I'll be chasing you
chasing you to the line. 


Cheers!
dlowe







7.05.2021

Luft

There is a jawnty style, a swagger that is a non swagger. a free floating confidence, happy, loved, strong, alive.


       photo: Brian Biggs

A spirit that floats, made up of the tinyest specs of life that moves through the air, through us.
If a small breeze comes along it lifts the balloon and the short cord slips through and released from the hand of a child,  we float, for a bit lifting up, but not away,  looking down at, and decided to return to the child's hand.

A funny thing about luft, is you can't rule it, but that it has rules.   And luft only lives, with others around you.    Sorta like if you had an instagram account and posted the most outstanding selfies, but you had no followers. 

I love a world where you don't need rules, and people are good, and you don't think about why you are smiling.  


I have memories, of people and their luft, and saddly they are not around anymore.
That one moment, of saying cheers! and looking into the others eyes, and the beer tasted Tasty!

Paintings have luft,  songs, birds on the birdfeeder, their early morning chirping, coming in an open morning bedroom window.  Things like bikes in general don't have luft,  maybe their are a few, that have acquired that spirit, but it was the spirit of the ride, not the bike. 


You really can't count on what life is going to give or take from,  you definitley don't control when. 
but it does seem like, you can even be strangers with someone, and for some common reason, there is luft.  For that short event, maybe working in a break-away together, or just stopping to help fix a flat, and ending up with an interesting conversation. 

I've always applied, a spit polish, to my bike, not literally, ...but I know, and respect, how that machine has put me place, and made me meet peolple, and symbolicly whatever bike that I pull out of the shed, for whatever ride to where ever, I know I'm lucky, and try to shake my anger, not take to serious the workout, and definetly know that what ever happens, that the luft is important. 

Cheers!  

Thanks for coming out and, ride after ride, never let me down, Here is a big toast to you, Cheers!
Water Ice CX '21 "Harry Horray!"

david